Thursday, 20 February 2020

STRUGGLING

This isn't really a post I would normally write but I'm struggling with boredom and I just want to write.

Lately I've been more bored than normal which isn't fun at all because I try to find things to do and be productive. I feel unmotivated and stuck in a slump of not doing much. I don't have any blog ideas at the moment so I haven't blogged. I want to post positive content but I haven't got any inspiration or creativity. I have been beating myself up and putting pressure on myself to find a job but there's not much more I can do I'm doing my best I've been on many courses but I am not doing anymore of them.

I have been colouring, doing hot beads, watching true crime docs (I've watched them all so I'm up to date) and swimming but other than them I'm not doing much. I am also currently watching some series Chicago med, criminal minds and law and order SUV but sometimes I don't feel like it. I know I don't have to be doing things all the time but when you have all this time I feel like I should use it wisely but it's hard.

I go volunteering one day a week and I do sometimes go down the town to get fresh air but I really am bored. I am trying to be positive but its becoming difficult now because I'm not positive I feel bored and fed up. Job hunting is hard and I haven't really found anything to apply for or when I think I have the hours a crap. I am trying my best here but I feel like I'm not getting anywhere and going round in circles.


Anyway that's all thanks for reading if you did. 

I will be back soon.

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